If I can't see you - You can't see me!

So in order to maintain the little sanity I have left, I have decided to completely ignore the crazy wierd mini-series that is my life at the moment. At least I will avoid the situation for as long as possible. I have no desire to remain in this ridiculous state - So why torture myself?? Why??

It would just be so much easier if I could disappear for a little while to a beautiful little island with a tight ass beef cake! Sigh....yes, yes, yes....I know....chicken shit....but I don't care...I have no problem with that! :p Well the alternative option would kinda be funny just to see reactions for about 2 seconds - before my pride takes over and completely berates me and I find it necessary to bury myself under mountains of blankets - yeah that is right, if I can't see you- you can't see me!!!

hummmm so yeah, I prefer the beach option!

Suffice to say, I am mortified by the series of events in my life recently. I am even more annoyed that I can't control it! Damn it! Yes I know - I am such the little princess demanding such and such. Well damn it! If I can - why not?? Damn it damnit!

I know none of this really makes a great deal of sense, but if anyone is thinking of asking - I can't clarify or articulate exactly what the situation is. Sorry, maybe one day when I am old and don't care....yes when I am an old lady in my rocking chair in my beach front home. Yes that is when I might be able to acknowledge that the episode even happened. Hummm yeah....

For now, I will vent and completely confuse most people, but too bad....sometimes events - situations - life in general is not this lovely clear picture. Sometimes, like in my case its this crazy ass rollercoaster that sometimes goes BOOM and through underground tunnels away from all.

-------------------- Venting Session Complete ----------------------

Other random thoughts:

• Vancouver Canucks kicked Detriot Ass in a 4-1 game!
• Long distance phone cards Rock - Cordless phones with crap batteries Suck!
• Gino thanks for the human kinetics lesson ;)
• John you're slowing down! Missed salsa practice again! :p
• LOVE absolutely LOVE dancing with live drummers! The energy that is exchanged is amazing!!! Love the chills it gives you down your back.
• ADORE -yes that's right - absolutely ADORE Hot Smoothies from Tim Hortons.....butter carmel....mmmm

Okay by the next posting - I should be once again back to my random self and less of this chaotic mess. It is becoming more clear just how truely I am a type 7 enneagram personality - Worst Sin: Gluttony - Worst Fear: Deprivation - Self Definition: happy, fun, enthusiastic and playful -Avoidance: Emotional pain, Sadness, Boredom -

http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/

Type 7 (The Enthusiast) -- The Busy, Fun-Loving Type: Spontaneous, Versatile, Distractible, and Scattered Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.