Evil Creatures PART II

Okay so after promising to stop with the ranting and raving....here I am again...thus, WARNING: Much of this will not make any sense. But those damn Evil creatures are at it again! Throwing things at me and creating messiness as they sit back and enjoy the entertainment. Damnit!

First, Sam I am NOT a drama queen! I believe you hold that title my dear ;) Never can I hope to aspire to such heights :p hahaha And I am not 90210 or the OC - And John I am not South Park either - I am neither stick thin nor boxy - I have curves boys! :p And as for character - well nothing can compare ;)

Anyways, my day was as follows....

I woke up early to find SNOW.....eeeepppp so essentially I stayed in my warm bed until about 10mins before work. It's much too soon for snow and cold weather! Anyways, I stopped off at Tim Horton's to grab my latest obsession - Butter Caramel Hot Smoothy (thx Angel for this brilliant introduction)! And while there, I thought....hummm maybe I will try a low fat cranberry muffin.....errr yeah you read it right the first time - I don't have to repeat it :p I know low fat and me don't normally get along. But I thought this once maybe I'll try it...maybe its not so bad.

Server: What can I get you?
Me: mmmmm An Extra Large Butter Caramel Hot Smoothy and ummm errrr a low fat cranberry muffin
Server: Oh the Lemon Cranberry muffin
Me: eeerrr ummm actually the low fat cranberry muffin (...Me pointing...)
Server: Oh that one is low fat! This one is the Lemon Cranberry
Me: errr ummm yeah i know...that is okay...I'll get the this one (....once again pointing.....)
Server: You want the low fat one? That one is low fat.
Me: eeerrrrr ummmm yeah

So the day I decide to intentionally order something low fat and I must convince the server to sell it to me :s hummmm I think this low fat stuff isn't meant for me. Although it was actually good. I know this is all trivial, but at the moment it is easier to focus on the minor annoyances.

Okay so on to the even more nonsensical stuff in my life......

For being emotionally constipated, the last few days have been shockingly emotional diahrea. Or rather it would like to be, but thank goodness I have pride as my plug!!

I am exhausted from the chaos....I tetter-totter back and forth >>> Pratical = Ignore it! vs. Trouble = err yeah....

Oye! Arghhh How is it that trouble could be so tempting? See the ridiculous thing is if it's good trouble, then umm heheehee for me - But if its bad trouble, well then I will be required to bury myself under mountains of blankets until my plane arrives for Europe or I go on my Island escape....sigh.....

Will I ever deal with it....mmmmm no. Because at this point I am chicken shit and my pride out ways my fear of regret and deprivation. But then I am so changable lately. Its no wonder I am exhausted!

Anyways, in other news:

• Heard from yet another person who I am not sure how to respond to yet - Evil Creatures again creating trouble - eeppp I already seem to attract enough of that...sigh...
• My beginners belly dance students have gone through the routine once without mistake! YAY!!! Excited for them to perform. I feel like the mother hen preening and gloating over her chicks
• Danced with my students at the drumming performance tonight - Yeah I am not a big fan of public performances...I feel so stiff and as well intended as it was, the hip jabbing in the back in a PUSH of encouragement....well, yeah only serves to infurate me! arghhhh sad I didn't connect with the live music - damn being self conscious!
• Oh Yes! I also found a new distraction from the chaos - free Hula Classes!
• ooooo Love the Hot Orange Coral Bikini from Jully Black's new video! Yes definitely aiming for the Flat Abs & Hot Coral Bikini & Tropical Island & Tight Assed Beef Cake in the new year...mmmmmm yes that will do.......
• Favorite words = Invigorating, resilient, vivacious

If I can't see you - You can't see me!

So in order to maintain the little sanity I have left, I have decided to completely ignore the crazy wierd mini-series that is my life at the moment. At least I will avoid the situation for as long as possible. I have no desire to remain in this ridiculous state - So why torture myself?? Why??

It would just be so much easier if I could disappear for a little while to a beautiful little island with a tight ass beef cake! Sigh....yes, yes, yes....I know....chicken shit....but I don't care...I have no problem with that! :p Well the alternative option would kinda be funny just to see reactions for about 2 seconds - before my pride takes over and completely berates me and I find it necessary to bury myself under mountains of blankets - yeah that is right, if I can't see you- you can't see me!!!

hummmm so yeah, I prefer the beach option!

Suffice to say, I am mortified by the series of events in my life recently. I am even more annoyed that I can't control it! Damn it! Yes I know - I am such the little princess demanding such and such. Well damn it! If I can - why not?? Damn it damnit!

I know none of this really makes a great deal of sense, but if anyone is thinking of asking - I can't clarify or articulate exactly what the situation is. Sorry, maybe one day when I am old and don't care....yes when I am an old lady in my rocking chair in my beach front home. Yes that is when I might be able to acknowledge that the episode even happened. Hummm yeah....

For now, I will vent and completely confuse most people, but too bad....sometimes events - situations - life in general is not this lovely clear picture. Sometimes, like in my case its this crazy ass rollercoaster that sometimes goes BOOM and through underground tunnels away from all.

-------------------- Venting Session Complete ----------------------

Other random thoughts:

• Vancouver Canucks kicked Detriot Ass in a 4-1 game!
• Long distance phone cards Rock - Cordless phones with crap batteries Suck!
• Gino thanks for the human kinetics lesson ;)
• John you're slowing down! Missed salsa practice again! :p
• LOVE absolutely LOVE dancing with live drummers! The energy that is exchanged is amazing!!! Love the chills it gives you down your back.
• ADORE -yes that's right - absolutely ADORE Hot Smoothies from Tim Hortons.....butter carmel....mmmm

Okay by the next posting - I should be once again back to my random self and less of this chaotic mess. It is becoming more clear just how truely I am a type 7 enneagram personality - Worst Sin: Gluttony - Worst Fear: Deprivation - Self Definition: happy, fun, enthusiastic and playful -Avoidance: Emotional pain, Sadness, Boredom -

http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/

Type 7 (The Enthusiast) -- The Busy, Fun-Loving Type: Spontaneous, Versatile, Distractible, and Scattered Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.

Chaotic

After 3 months of not writing anything on my blog....all I seem to be able to do lately is write. Unfortunately, to most it will be nonsensical ramblings....sigh....but that is life sometimes.

I am as some people have said in a chaotic movie scene :s I feel more like I have had a bomb just drop on me. Although I must say things are starting to clear up....I am still shocked about the ummm episode, but more willing to believe that its not so freakish and scary.....just shocking for me. I love girlfriends! My dears, I demand that you live closer!!!

I am just Moritified by the entire episode....wierd how crazy things happen all at once.....are you allowed to deal with things one by one sweet sane time? No....its just BOOM....sigh.....

So enough about the unknown and the crazy chaotic thoughts......

Otherwise, besides the lack of sleep. Belly dance DVD and restaurant performance are quickly approaching! For having not ever wanted to perform in public before this DVD and show will definitely be shock treatment for my fears.


I LOVE DRUMMING!!! Saturday I went to a drumming clinic and later a Ache Brasil performance (http://www.achebrasil.com/)! Oh my word were they ever INCREDIBLE!!! I want to learn the drumming and samba dancing!!! NOW!!!! I tried to get John to get up on stage and learn - that didn't appeal to him.

The Capoeira demonstrations were mesmorizing and the Samba dancing beautiful. John was enamoured by one of the dancers. I can't deny, I like the little bum circles and shaking the main announcer boy had going!



Side note: In these crazy past few days - Among the people reappearing in my life, I also learnt that my old roommate, Jon will be in the Philippines around the same time I plan on going (depending on the job situation)!! Super excited to see him again!!! CONGRADULATIONS on becoming a SAILOR!!! :)

Alright I am hungry and sleepy, so that's it for now. Oh and one other random thought. I am a true coffee hater. okay maybe that is a strong word for it. I am sure its great for the coffee addicts, but for me - our relationship ends with the only part about it I like...the aroma.

I went to this amazing restaurnt in Vernon where the food was so good and I (the great appreciator of food) was unable to make an even credible dent in the small plate because I was so full. Anyways the Tiramisu for dessert....(mmmmmmm.....chocolate my dearest love).....had little coffee beans on it. Then there was me thinking...well all the food here is so very good, maybe I will just try it. YEAH - NO! Did I like it???? Hell No!! arghhh its so deceiving. How can something that can smell so nice, well just taste not so nice....sigh....Sorry Cheryl, I think when we are country hoping in Europe, you are on your own with the coffee tastings.

Kay ciao.

Evil Creatures

What the Hell? Sometimes I think there are these evil creatures out there who enjoy playing - creating drama and messes....

Evil Creatures: " What did you say? Oh so you don't like drama, eh? What no answer? Think you can avoid us, huh??? Heeheeheee Fine!"

Then BOOM! Out of nowhere there is this crap - NO WARNING, NO CRAMPS, NO ANYTHING...its just there. And of course being emotionally constipated - your pride screams at you the entire time!!

Arghhhhhh......

Sometimes I feel like I am on a sitcom, with the evil little writers with their evil little laugh sitting there thinking what next they can throw at you.

Evil Writers: "Ooooo Try this. yeah. Let's see what she does...heeheehee oooo wait and why don't we add this its even more messy. Yay, what FuN!"

Me: "Yeah, really? yeah? DAMN YOU!! DAMN SQ^&%* ! DAMN C$%&@#!!!"

oh, hummm okay I know none of that makes any sense. But damn it - Do you think it makes any sense to me?? Noooooooo - And I am stuck in it!!! Oye!

Okay venting stage done...Arghhh I am irritable!

But its all good. I just wish I had a plane and could fly to some beautiful beach on some tropical island with a beef cake. mmmmmm perferably a beaf cake I could bounce quarters off his tight err ummmm bum.

DAMN RIGHT I AM CHICKEN SHIT AND WOULD RUN AWAY IN AN INSTANT!! why? why? cause this is NOT ME!!!!!!!! run away from the drama that is - besides, why deal with it if you don't have to??? why put yourself through the torture??? The tight bum....mmmmm.....no that I will keep please and thank you.

oh okay, for real I am done now. venting session officially over...sigh...(damn gross emotions)....

on a different note: I have this renew motivation to just workout to sheer exhaustion. Why? Because I have so much damn restless energy! Also then I could KICK FREAKIN' S$%^ C(*#@ ASS! opps that wasn't suppose to sound violent....but why does the thought of it sometimes bring such satisfaction...damn evil writters again. Well good thing from this is that I can now work on perfecting my belly dancing and salsa dancing and every damn dance!

Alright, I am off to eplilate now. Wierd I don't know the last time I got up of my own free will at 7 am after being up until 4am. But this is good it gives me time to get island girl ready.

ooooo venting is good. My pride seeping back....Yay! I knew it was still there somewhere and that you didn't abandon me to the scary ass emotional messes! fabulousness!